Why Joel is a Jackass part 2
Joel is a jackass because he is so cheap. He won't spend any money on anything he can get for free from other people. His chipped plates and barbeque grill came from his friend. He doesn't buy a whole lot for Tyson because he knows I will buy it or my dad and stepmom will send it. For Christmas, Joel spent less than $20 for Tyson's gift. I spent maybe about $200 or so, and my dad and stepmom spent more than that I'm sure. I know it's not about how much money is spent on the gift, but come on! Twenty bucks for two little Shake-n-Go racecars and that's it? Pathetic. He could have at least got him the race tracks that go with the cars too. Cheap bastard.
I had to take semi-warm showers for months because Joel got some stupid tankless water heater that was supposed to heat the water on demand and never run out. Well, because this is a trailer and the water in the ground is fucking freezing cold, the stupid-ass thing couldn't heat the water up enough. It was miserable. I finally told him at the beginning of January that if he didn't do something about the water heater, I wasn't going to live here anymore. Well, it took several weeks, but we finally have 120 degree water, thank God. But the dumbass was so cheap that he didn't go to Home Depot or Lowes for a water heater. No.... he had to order it on online.
Right now I'm very angry with him and have been for a few days. He refuses to discuss something criminal he did back in Smalltown Cali when he was younger. I know what he did because one of his sisters filled me in on it about a year ago. But before then, he never volunteered this information and when I casually asked him if he had ever been in trouble with the law, he said once in Smalltown but it was a long time ago and has nothing to do with the here and now. I kept pressing him and he said to just let it go. I was livid then and was determined to find out. So I did and felt somewhat satisfied that I knew the story, but upset nevertheless that he would not and did not ever let me know his version of the events, which has to do with his being 18 and having sex with a girl who was 16 or 17 I think. The issue came up again recently because I picked up the mail and noticed a letter from a lawyer in Smalltown Cali. I asked Joel what it was about, and after he read it, he whooped and hollered for joy, saying simply that he had had a "youthful indescretion" but that now it was expunged from his record. He did not know that I had found out most of the details of this "youthful indescretion" so we left it at that that day.
The next evening, this past Tuesday actually, we were in the office and I asked if I could read the letter. He said no, it's private. I railed into him about how I've been duped and how he is a deceiving person. He said I'm just being nosy. I told him I'm not just being nosy because I already know what the legal situation is all about. I just want him to be honest with me and come clean, but he absolutely refused. Fucking asshole. So I haven't really been speaking to him since then; just when I have to communicate with him about Tyson and that's it.
I feel like there's all this venom inside me. I have such disdain for him and it feels like poison that needs to be purged and I don't know how to get rid of it. I just want to move out of this rotten hellhole. I have new tenants who signed a rental contract though so I can't move back into my house, which I want to so badly because 1) I want outta the ghetto; and 2) I'm obsessed with remodeling my kitchen.
I have spent almost everyday researching materials for my kitchen. I just want new countertops, new appliances, new floor, new sink, new backsplash, some paint, and two or three hanging pendant lights to go over the counterheight seating area. I am obsessed. I watch HGTV videos online almost everyday. I go to quartz countertop websites and link to other kitchen design sites for ideas. I have photos I've taken and I look at them trying to imagine how new stuff will look. Tonight I wasted time in Photoshop trying to erase the barheight counters in a picture and draw in new counters. Of course I have no spatial abilities whatsoever, so it looked totally lame. Plus I'm terrible with Photoshop because I'm not familiar with it. Of course I'm obsessed with all this and I HAVE NO MONEY.
I finally applied as a sub with Brighton school district. That was last week and I still haven't heard from them. I went to a job fair last Saturday, which was a waste of time and $10 because all the interview slots were filled. I did get some information that is somewhat comforting, like Douglas County schools hired 450 new teachers. But of course there were 6,000 applicants. How depressing. I just want to get back into teaching because I know I'll be making about $50K a year for working 185 days with summers off and vacation at Christmas and Spring Break. I applied and interviewed for that stupid Children's Librarian in Louisville, but I guess no one impressed the old bitties because the job was re-posted. I just want to start earning some money again because I've basically run out of it. All that money from selling my house in California-- gone, except for a few thousand I put in my IRA and a couple grand in the 529s for my nephew and oldest niece in Florida. I am going into debt once again. God this sucks.
I had to take semi-warm showers for months because Joel got some stupid tankless water heater that was supposed to heat the water on demand and never run out. Well, because this is a trailer and the water in the ground is fucking freezing cold, the stupid-ass thing couldn't heat the water up enough. It was miserable. I finally told him at the beginning of January that if he didn't do something about the water heater, I wasn't going to live here anymore. Well, it took several weeks, but we finally have 120 degree water, thank God. But the dumbass was so cheap that he didn't go to Home Depot or Lowes for a water heater. No.... he had to order it on online.
Right now I'm very angry with him and have been for a few days. He refuses to discuss something criminal he did back in Smalltown Cali when he was younger. I know what he did because one of his sisters filled me in on it about a year ago. But before then, he never volunteered this information and when I casually asked him if he had ever been in trouble with the law, he said once in Smalltown but it was a long time ago and has nothing to do with the here and now. I kept pressing him and he said to just let it go. I was livid then and was determined to find out. So I did and felt somewhat satisfied that I knew the story, but upset nevertheless that he would not and did not ever let me know his version of the events, which has to do with his being 18 and having sex with a girl who was 16 or 17 I think. The issue came up again recently because I picked up the mail and noticed a letter from a lawyer in Smalltown Cali. I asked Joel what it was about, and after he read it, he whooped and hollered for joy, saying simply that he had had a "youthful indescretion" but that now it was expunged from his record. He did not know that I had found out most of the details of this "youthful indescretion" so we left it at that that day.
The next evening, this past Tuesday actually, we were in the office and I asked if I could read the letter. He said no, it's private. I railed into him about how I've been duped and how he is a deceiving person. He said I'm just being nosy. I told him I'm not just being nosy because I already know what the legal situation is all about. I just want him to be honest with me and come clean, but he absolutely refused. Fucking asshole. So I haven't really been speaking to him since then; just when I have to communicate with him about Tyson and that's it.
I feel like there's all this venom inside me. I have such disdain for him and it feels like poison that needs to be purged and I don't know how to get rid of it. I just want to move out of this rotten hellhole. I have new tenants who signed a rental contract though so I can't move back into my house, which I want to so badly because 1) I want outta the ghetto; and 2) I'm obsessed with remodeling my kitchen.
I have spent almost everyday researching materials for my kitchen. I just want new countertops, new appliances, new floor, new sink, new backsplash, some paint, and two or three hanging pendant lights to go over the counterheight seating area. I am obsessed. I watch HGTV videos online almost everyday. I go to quartz countertop websites and link to other kitchen design sites for ideas. I have photos I've taken and I look at them trying to imagine how new stuff will look. Tonight I wasted time in Photoshop trying to erase the barheight counters in a picture and draw in new counters. Of course I have no spatial abilities whatsoever, so it looked totally lame. Plus I'm terrible with Photoshop because I'm not familiar with it. Of course I'm obsessed with all this and I HAVE NO MONEY.
I finally applied as a sub with Brighton school district. That was last week and I still haven't heard from them. I went to a job fair last Saturday, which was a waste of time and $10 because all the interview slots were filled. I did get some information that is somewhat comforting, like Douglas County schools hired 450 new teachers. But of course there were 6,000 applicants. How depressing. I just want to get back into teaching because I know I'll be making about $50K a year for working 185 days with summers off and vacation at Christmas and Spring Break. I applied and interviewed for that stupid Children's Librarian in Louisville, but I guess no one impressed the old bitties because the job was re-posted. I just want to start earning some money again because I've basically run out of it. All that money from selling my house in California-- gone, except for a few thousand I put in my IRA and a couple grand in the 529s for my nephew and oldest niece in Florida. I am going into debt once again. God this sucks.
posted by Saleena | 2:48 AM
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